happy...happy....sedih...sakit...stress...uhuu

assalamualaikum....

bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

sports day last week sgt happening....even aku x byk contribute pape...tp, aku puas...sbb involve dlm event tuh....jd pemain simpanan pon ok wat....lame tuh x men btul2 cmtuh....sjak sekolah rendah....can u imagine dat??.....paling seronok team pompuan kelas kami dpt medal utk 2-2 game...(volleyball n futsal)....kitorg ni kire cm team underdog tau...latih sekali je...tp,alhamdulillah...berkat kesabaran kami n never give up...mmbuahkan hasil....n sume puas hati dpt mmberi yg terbaik kn...kwn2??especially siva...mulut u masin btul....hee....klu u kte nk medal ni sure kite dpt medal tu kn??hehe...congrates to all....pd yg kalah jgnlaa frust sgt..its juz one of our lesson plan...utk enjoy n mengeratkan ukhwah je....:)

after sports day...emosi aku x bape stabil dlm mggu tuh....smpailaa mlm khamis aku rse x sdp bdn, x sdp hati....mcm2 yg aku pk....sakit kt bdn mkin terasa....aku x tau nk mngadu kt sape....hnya Allah tmpt ku mengadu....nk mngadu kt mak....tp, cm x tersmpai....ade je mnda len yg dtg...huhu....xleh nk describelaa pe yg aku rse....yg aku rse klu aku dpt ngis aku akn rse lega ckit...so, aku ngislaa sorg2....huhu....siannye kt aku kn??.....

untill esoknye kt kelas....aku wat sdikit perubahan dgn mnjd seorg yg unapproachable....pendiam, x wat lwk....org buat lwk...x bpe nk bg respon....muram durjana je aku aritu...aku ingt xde org perasan....rupe2nya sume perasan...haha....pd mulenye aku juz nk wat experiment je utk cube jd dr aku yg dulu....last2 dh bkn experiment dh...mmg btul2 aku dh jd blk mcm dulu....uhuhuhu....aku x taulaa RAZ perasan ke x....aku rse die perasan cume die x tnjuk....maybe die thu aku ngah tertekan kot....

n now..sakit tu mkin berkurngn...alhamdulillah...cume emosi aku still x stabil....pyhnye nk wat keputusan kn??....dugaan demi dugaan yg mndtg....aku msih nk sia2kn peluang yg dtg or grab peluang yg Allah dh bg tu sebaik mngkin??help meeee.................................whut should i do??hati ni berat mngatakan utk pergi saje iv tuh....tp, keadaan spt tdk mengizinkan....aku nk wat prepairation pon xde smgt....Ya Allah, tnjukkanlah jalan kpd ku....to all my group members, i'm so sorry for inconvenient....aku serba slh ni tgglkn korg bertiga settlekn sume tuh....doaku...semgoa diberi kekuatan, ketenangan, ketabahan, dan kesabaran utk hadapi sume ni....n dpt buat keputusan yg terbaik...ameen....

k, sblm berundur diri nk share gmbr2 spnjg sports day....enjoy da pic yeah....

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Semalam aku kelukaan,
kecewa kehampaan,
mencalar ketabahan,
mimpi yang sering ku harapkan,
menjadi kenyataan,
namun tak kesampaian.

Allah…
Inginku hentikan langkah ini,
bagaikan tak mampu untuk ku bertahan,
semangat tenggelam,
lemah daya,
haruskah aku mengalah,
namun jiwaku berbisik,
inilah dugaan.

Dan langkahku kini terbuka,
pada hikmah dugaan,
uji keimanan (menguji keimanan),
tak dilontarkanNya ujian,
di luar kekuatan,
setiap diri insan.

Allah…
Pimpinlah diriku,
tuk bangkit semula,
meneruskan langkah,
perjuangan ini,
cekalkan hati dan semangatku,
kurniakan ketabahan,
agar mimpi jadi nyata,
padaMu ku meminta.

Daku mohon agung kudratMu,
wahai Tuhan yang satu,
segalanya dariMu.

Lagu : Bazli
Lirik : Bazli & Atie

difficult ke aku ni???

assalamualaikum sume....

arini topik kte...am i a difficult person to deal with people??hehe

punyelaa pyh aku nk cr previous experince yg mnunjukkn aku seorg yg difficult to be arranged....pdhal...mlmbk situasi aku jd degil ble rse dr tu btul sokmo....tp, npe x jumpe2???ke sbb aku ni baek sgt...or terlebih stubborn...smpai x nmpk lngsung dh situation tuh...haha....

klaa...conclusionnye....aku mmg seorg yg difficult....tp, bkn pd org rmi...tp, pd dr sndr....

aku suke mnjdkn sesuatu keadaan tuh jd complicated....dat's y i'm a difficult person....

n aku still xleh nk bg contoh yg mnunjukkn aku adlh org yg mcm tuh....oklaa...cth plg dekat....aku sgt ssh nk buat keputusan....until now i'm very slow to make a decision...i'm not da rite person to make a decision for a team work....dats my weaknesses....n i need to improve dat....a lot of things need to "muhasabah" about me myself....

klaa...very tired rite now...pulun training volleyball....smpai skit2 tgn nih....jd player+refree....ilang suara....huhu...

klaa nite sume....salam

ju-on vs ju-eh

assalamualaikum......

wah...rsenye mlm ni cm nk jd emo skit plk....tetibe je...buang tebiat ke pe aku nih....hahaha

klaa....tjuk kte pada hari ini ialah "ju-on" vs "ju-eh".....(mcm nk ngajar plak....ihihi)....

ntah nape tetibe aku terluahkan plak segala perasaan x puas ati kt sorg classmate kt U nih psl pggilan yg dak kelas suke pggil...."JU-ON"....pdhal aku ni jenis yg suke avoid je....lantak koranglaa nk pnggil pe....wahaha....pe kene ntah aku nih....sorrylaa weh.....x psl2 ko jd mngsa....aku serba-salah plak....huhu.....

Frankly to say, I'm quite uncomfortable when they like to call me like dat....1stly, i'm ok....juz take it easy as a joke...but, time by time....i feel uneasy....dont knowlaa....i think its juz a small matter...no need to make it complicated....but......i feel like something wronglaa....mcm jd pntg lrng plak dah....sorrylaa guys....i juz wanna be assertively as i can....hehe....(poyolaa plak...haha)...

haa.....kalu korg susah sgt nk pggil jue....aku ade nme bru....hahah.....kt sini membe2 suke pggil aku "Ju-eh"....mule2 aku pon cm x bpe berkenan....puncenye sbb aku tulis nickname aku "JUE"...pastu trainer aku suke btul pnggil aku ngn sbutan baku....jdlaa "ju-eh"....haha....lame2 bile diorg pggil....aku cm dh biasa plak.....n x rse mcm yg korg pggil "ju-on" tuh...so, korg pgil ar aku ngan name tuh klu rse susah noo nk pggil nme pnuh aku or nme pndek aku....aslkn korg bhgie....huhuh.....org kte ape ade pd nme....tp,bg aku nme tu dh mnunjukkn identiti kte sbnrnye....especially nick-name....so, pk2knlaa....uhuh

act, tu je pelajaran kte pd hari ni ye anak2....ahaha...(psl pnggilan je rupe2nye)....

aku rse aku dh ckup open....rupe2nye x g....haha...aku xleh nk jd org lenlaa....aku ttp aku...sbyk mne pon aku bleh berubah...aku xleh nk ubah originality yg ade kt dr aku....tp, aku percye...slgi mnda tu baik utk kte....x slh kte berubah kn??cmne nk wat eh....aku ni ade krisis identiti ke???uhuh....(take ur time ju.....)

ermm...satu lg mnda nk share.....alhamdulillah aku berjaya mencabar dr aku drive luar dr kwsn jhor ngn selmatnye....Thanx to Allah n my family to give me a "paradise" opportunity.....(x mlmpau sgtkn word tuh??hehe)....skurg2nye aku thu di mane ade kemahuan di situ ade jalan....klu aku x beranikan dr...aku xkn thu aku mmpu lakukannya....tul x??hopefully,pasni mak x risau dh nk bg aku drive g mne2 in case ade urgent kne g luar dr jhr g ke.....and aku pon x lost confidence level yg aku dh ade nih.....uhuhu.....

kla....dh ngntok....esok de kelas nih...kononye letih....blk td xleh nk bukak mate...tetibe leh plak nk ngepost2 blog plak kn???ngeh3.....see u again....papai...nite....salam....ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

long...long...long time no see.....

dis is my 1st post for a new year 2010....

a lot of things want to share about my previous life after graduation day...but needs to go with da flow...which one is da big rock....hehe...or maybe, better i short cut da story...no need to "membebel" panjang...heee....

after my graduation day....of courselaa kte sume ngah sibuk ngn puasa and raya....terllu byk pic rye nk upload...not suitable for short cut story.....i tot i already upload into my fb....its juz good enough,rite.....

wut the most important thing dat i would like to share actly...about my experience to be a freshgraduate....finding a job or further study for postgraduate....its all about my challenging of life.....

klaa....frankly to mention dat i already got offer from both of dat things which are job and further study.....around after raya if i'm not a mistaken.....1st offered come from da consultant company of mechanical,electrical and sivil engineering but its juz under conformation....they told me...juz waiting an offer letter....and in the waiting's situation....i got an offered from Universiti Malaya for postgraduate in Engineering of Industry and Electronic Control.....and dgn x bijaknya....i've told dat company dat i got da offer....so, u should know wut happened rite??....i terlepas ckplaa when i want to know about my offer letter....so, xde rezeki utk berkhidmat di sana.....

pk punye pk....i juz wanna proceed with master....unfortunately, when i check da fees of study....almost 12k.....and i start pening pale how to get da balance of 10k if my application for scholarship "Bajet Mini" is approve???.....dgn sadisnya....my all family suggest to work first....and i can further my study by part time....uhuhuhu......konon2nyalaa 1st come 1st surve....hahah....itulaa yg dinamakn kita hanya mampu merancang....Allah jua yg mnntukan segala2nya......huhu

after dat, i got an offer from a properties investment company as a legal assistant....in dat case...its such a difficult time to make a best decision....mase tu aku btul2 mcm org gler....nk kje pon leh jd gler ek??haha..kne ceramah sane sini....yg plg xleh blah kne ceramah terbaek punye ngn pakcik, my best fren ever....sungguh berani pak cik menyound aku...ahaks....sbb die sound akulaa...smpai berjujuran air mata ha....hahaha...(malunye....huhu).....bkn pe...sume yg die sound tu btul2 kne btg hidung aku....tu psl r....ingt suke2 ke nk nangis.....da most important problem mase tu aku dlm dilema nk wat keputusan....sbb sekali aku dh msuk dunia lain....aku x kn berani patah balik....coz wut??coz aku adalah aku...uhuh...dan aku pon sdar x smestinya kte akn bekerja ikut bidang kte ble abis blaja....n aku nmpk kbnrnnye di situ....btw, Allah lebih tahu yg terbaik utk aku....dengan pertolongan Allah s.w.t....i think i've make a great decision to reject dat offer.....plz jgn tnye nape....coz x mau nk ingt dah kngn2 tuh.....bia jelaaa.....i never ever regret it...

ermm....nmpknye dh agk lewat nih....needs to sleep....tp, nnt dululaa abiskan cter dulu...ckit g....kte short2kn lagi seboleh mgkin ye....

now, after a lot of experience to find a job kne tolak dan menolak...hehe..with new "azam"....aku nekad nk join IMGLAD programme yg dh kali ke 3 aku dpt twrnnye...aku rse tu dh satu ptnda yg aku xleh nk tolak g dah...and i realize dat is da good opportunity yg aku xkn dpt kt mane2....sape sgka bile join programme ni aku dpt duk hostel balik...jd student...haha.....without any fees....ngeh3.....dpt g jungle tracking....daki gunung, air terjun....and mcm2 glaa yg aku dh lame gler x wat.....happening sgt2.....but da most important thing is da "ilmu" yg aku rse sgt berharga utk aku jd sorg "MANUSIA" yg berguna pada agama, bangsa dan negara....(hebat sgtlaa plak bnyinye....layankan je...)....modulnye aku rse quite good...ditmbh lg ngn trainer yg terbaek...aku x rse mnyesal lngsunglaa join mnda nih...cumee satu je yg aku upset sesgt.....ALLOWANCE......uuwwwaaaaa.....................(lmbt gler masuk.....)....wateverpon...life must go on....semoga Allah mempermudahkan segala urusanku slpas ini....ameen....

n dikesempatan ini nk wish congrates kt sume membe2 yg dh dpt permanent job....gud luck to be da best employee in da world...hehe....n dont forget to pray kt kami2 yg x dpt kje lagi ni....especially me.....uhuhu....klu leh nk abiskan jugak program nih.....tu yg x berani nk continue cr kje sgt....tkut dlm dilema lg....haha...mslh tul dak nih....hehe....

klaa.....nk tdo dh...insyaallah kalu rajin nk mngarut.....akn update lg blog ni ye.....(mcm rmi je yg nk amik tau psl ko ju...haha....pdhal follower pon xda...kihkih)...biala....nme pon blog@diaries....layan.......papai sume....wassalam.....